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Name: David
Birthday: 7/27/1980
Gender: Male
Interests: Acting. Sketch comedy. Developing new and fun characters. Cooking. Friends. Family. Loving people. Laughing. Groundlings school of Comedy. Camp ministry and kids.
Expertise: Vagabon Evangelism. Bible. Some theology. Rich Mullins. Brennan Manning Books. Messing up. Acting and comedy.
Occupation: Artist
Industry: Entertainment
Message: message me
Website: visit my website
Member Since:
11/8/2004
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| I wish I was perfect, but I'm just not.
I want to be better in every way.
I want to be a better man.
More mature, more patient, a better listener.
It's hard to accept that I am a work in progress, and to be okay with that.
But I must.
Because it is the Lord Jesus, who is the potter, not I.
I've realized my pride has got in the way of his maturation of myself, and haulted the Love and work He has wanted to do...
I have fooled myself in a way, into thinking that certain areas of my life or certain views that I have held were "right on"...my own pride corrupts the convictions of my Holy God....or at least makes them hard to see.
God has truly been doing a great work on me, in unexpected ways, and I am thankful...and i am truly humbled
But I am so Glad he is a patient, loving, and gracious God who is constantly wooing me back to Him...even when I didn't realize I've strayed in ways...or have been pridefully holding back in ways...
Most of all I am thankful that God has got me in a place where I don't care about a career, but I care about having an abundant life in Jesus...and my pursuit is no longer my own...it is a pursuit to live a life honoring and glorifying Jesus...
This has always been my heart, but it just seems a little clearer...and I am more hungry for righteousness than I have been in awhile.
Jesus,
Thank you for your mercy and compassion.
your humble servant,
david
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| It's hard to be contemplative, when life is moving so fast.
Don't get me wrong, contemplative thinking is still working overtime, but writing it down becomes less and less.
Not my own writing, that remains the same, but the public one is very different and less frequent.
I am dating a wonderful woman, Amy. That's probably the newest and greatest "new" thing going on right now.
She's hot, loves Jesus, and puts up with me...can you ask for anything more?
Ummmm...I'll be honest I don't know what God is doing right now, but I am strangely okay with that.
I just finished All of Grace, by Charles Spurgeon "the prince of preachers", it was simple, profound, and a great sermon.
It, among many things, is challenging me to be a better man. I remember in the fall of 2003 a pastor told me, "David don't worry about what you are doing, but worry about who you are." This still is a good description of what is on my mind. And seattle is a good place to do that at.
I don't know what career will look like in the future, but I know I want to have a family.
I don't know what I am called to specifically per say, but I know It's about Jesus and proclaiming the gospel, whether it is evangelism, acting, churchplanting, some other really cool thing I don't even know about yet...maybe...but it is one of those soft and urgent lessons I get from Jesus all the time..."Don't worry about it, abandon yourself to me"
That's pretty much it, I have a long laundry list of goals and projects...I could use prayer for steadfast discipline, edurance, and persaverance...among keeping my eyes on Jesus, and "acknowleding" him in all areas...
Mars Hill kicks ass by the way. | | |
| I do believe in the agreement and power of prayer,
Any day I will hear about an "opportunity" I have been dreaming of for a long time, I don't know what God has in store...maybe it's this, maybe it's not...
but I definetly would appreciate you sending up a prayer for me.
thanks,
david | | |
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COURAGE
You know, I heard this sermon once on the Lord's Prayer...I am pretty sure it was by a pastor in Texas...Matt Chandler.
He was talking about how on the part where Jesus is teaching us to pray ..."thy Kingdom come, thy will be done" Jesus is leading us in a prayer of courage...
I find myself praying for God's will to be done a lot, and I was sharing with a friend a few weeks ago , all the wonderful caos that is going on in my life, and i quickly said, "I just hope God's will will be done." And he said, "Oh, well you don't have to worry about that, it will."
God's will, will be done. And His kingdom will come, and has. But the question often remains, will I have the courage to follow it, and the humility to Obey it and sumbit to it.
I hope so, right. The most honest answer is sometimes I do, and sometimes I don't.
But, like any man, I long to be a warrior in His kingdom. Fearful of Him, and courageous to all others. I don't live for man, I live for God. No matter, the circumstance, poor or rich, popular or outcast, successful or rediculed a failure...I long to be loyal, bold, courageous.
I am in an extreme season of God's extra blessing and favor and I am sucking the marrow out of the moment. I feel like I am on a cliff with my head towards heaven enjoying the breeze and mist from the winds, carrying the waters from the ocean.
So much is possible, the next day is unknown, I am on a ship that could change directions at the last possible second. Opportunites are bigger than I could have ever dreamed, the weight of responsability is heavy on my shoulders, the hunger to Sream "God loves you!" is bigger than ever. I don't know what is ahead, but I know this I want to go out swinging. I want be loyal to Jesus, pray without ceasing, love unconditionally, repent of the sins I still have only merely confessed of, and preach Jesus...preach Him hard, preach Him loud, preach His undying, relentless love unapologetically with a fierceness and compassion that could only come from Him.
Pray for me. I was talking with a friend today, and I surprised myself with something I said today. "I am ready." I said it from my soul. Not even quite sure I meant anything specific, but as if I am stepping out to an uncharted mission field, and I have been through the fires of trial and testing...and Now God's hand on my life, although quite underserved, is undeniably on my life...and I go now to make His name known to anybody that would be willing to listen...Jesus, truly loves them, died for them, and hungers for relationship with them.
I declare this to all, it is all God's Glory...For his Glory, about His Glory, and about the Cross, about the Love of Jesus...whatever happens in the days ahead...I pray that people can look back on this as a testament to that all that has happend with my life ...the opportunities, the successes, the glory...all of it is due to Jesus Christ. | | |
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Reluctant to the FIRE inside
When I listen to Brennan Manning, the song on my profile, talk about the Love of God...message a few of us have heard over and over...somethings awakens in my soul...there is a burning in my heart...
And I cant' help but think of scriptures of people that were walking with God and they remark, "Were not our hearts burning when He was with us."
I tend to have a lot on my mind. Perfectionism in multiple areas. Failures in the same. Career, Women, Heroism, Sin, Holiness, Stuggles, Pain, Joy, Love
...BUT...when I hear of this one subject, the Love of God, every part of me wants to drop to the floor (sometimes I do..not out of being pious, but out of desperate need)...and as I drop my soul crys out in silence...Abba, I need you, I want you, your love and nothing else....
It may only last a moment, but in this brief moment of intimacy with God...I experience all that keeps me going...I want His love and nothing else. I want His love to be my bread, my water, my clothes, my foundation, the reason I get up in the morning, the arms I press into a night...
Do you know this Love? If you don't you are missing out? Why can I be so bold to say that? Well...let me ...It is the reason I turned 27 today. For I can not tell you how many times I would have taken my own life, completely turned my life over to depression and death...if it wasn't for this crazy thing called, "UNCONDITIONAL LOVE."
No matter our belief system, there is not many of us that know Love outside of conditions...but until you experience love in the realm of Unconditions you have not experienced love at all.
This same love that comforts, also inspires, encourages, fires me up...and makes me want to drop all that I am making my life to surrender to the call of preaching silently in the way i live and loudly in the way I communicate the truly undeniable Love of God...that would love us while we and are sinners...that loves us when we don't believe...that loves us when we don't care...that loves us when we are consumed with our own agendas...that loves us when we are self consumed...that loves us when we would trade pleasure for intimacy with GOD...that loves us so much that He himself would give up His Son to be murdered as a sacrafice for our wrongdoings so that to merely have relationship with Him all we would need to do ...is go..."Okay, I accept...i accept the fact that I am accepted...I accept the fact that you love me..."
Can you not feel it? Or can you just hypothesize about it...it's quite different even if it is accurate.
Only the love of God can make me feel like I've got so far to go....yet make me feel so completely and perfectly loved.
Jesus, may my every thought, dream, desire, ambition, action...be transformed into a reflection of your unconditional love.
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